Past, Present, Future

Today I am sad. I don't know what it is. Last night I had a dream about high school, and it had me thinking about my past today. I hopped on Facebook.com and started searching through profiles of all my old friends from high school and beauty school who I don't talk to anymore..

I don't know what makes me more sad, that I have lost contact with good friends, or the lives that we have all chose to live. I don't know if that makes sense, I'll try to explain better. I had a couple best friends in my childhood. Some I lost contact with, had falling outs with, or just grew apart from. But the thing that makes me the most sad is that they aren't a part of my life. Some of my past friends haven't even met Trav, or Riley. And I haven't met their significant others or children, or seen where they live, or even know what job they hold. All lines of communication have been lost, and I miss all the people I used to be so attached to.

Then it made me reflect on my life now. How many friends do I have now that might slip away in the next couple years. I get that everyone is busy, and building their own lives, but why does it feel like no one makes an effort at all :( I know I can do better. I don't need to live in my own little bubble... I go crazy in our little basement, all alone, day after day, waiting for Trav to come home from work. I need girlfriends to visit with.

So now, I'm thinking of the future! I don't want to loose anymore friends to busy life styles. SO! If anyone wants to do breakfast, lunch or dinner, give me a call. If you have kids or not, come on over to our house and we can spend the afternoon making cookies. I'm up for shopping, movies, or making crafts. I'm reaching out! Email me, text me, call me. Most of all, my plea is email me, text me, or call me BACK! And if you are reading this and we talk everyday (Becca.. Mom..) maybe try reaching out to others besides me, because obviously we might just talk more then enough lol. Or spend all your time with me :) I wouldn't mind that either.

I love all my friends past and present and hope that in time, I can be caught up with all the people I promised to never let go out (Dallas Roberts). Because, come on, I know all kinds of stay at home moms that also do nothing all day long, well, we have kids, so I know we aren't doing 'nothing' but you know what I mean. Stay at home moms who have small windows of opportunity to indulge on activities.

ps. I'm sure I sound crazy, I just needed to get all that off my chest :)

pss. All of you who ignored my 'pay it forward' post are going to be sad sad people! Since Megan was the only one who replied, her gift is going to be AMAZING! And when I post pictures, you will all be sad you missed out!